So you've seen I've gotten this far.
Please give me some place to hide.
I'm not trying to go there, so take me away.

Life sometimes pisses me off.
It's never a good trip for me
Every time I reach for love, it's taken away.

Night! So I play.
Give me a sign this is gay.
Give me some patience, so I pray.
It's time to die. Is that what I want?

There's nothing wrong wanting to be loved.
Is there something wrong with me?
For once in my life I'd like to be really set free.

Let me be me.

Night! So I play.
Give me a sign this is gay.
Give me some guidance, so I pray.
It's time to die. Is that what I want?

Take me away.
Taken away.
Take me away.
Taken... away.

Something I get, I got to get home
Run, run, run, run, run, run running home

Where is my home...

...suck my dick...

Night! So I play.
Give me a sign this is day.
Give me some patience, so I pray.
It's time to die. Is that what I want?

Night! So I play.
Give me a sign this is day.
Give me some guidance, so I pray.
It's time to die. Is that what I want?

"Big black cock!  That's what I call a jack and coke.  Those little glasses they serve in Europe and everything.  That's what I named it, big black cock.  And that's another song about me dealing with the pressures of this album and how I, you know, I'm trying to kill myself, but you know?  Do I really want to kill myself?  Things I'm just questioning myself.  Most of this is self-structured." - Jonathan Davis